Apologies

Thrice we fought, once we hugged.
You thought of giving up,
I thought of doubts.

I don't feel any spark at all,
But it's obvious that you're very serious.
You've become a close friend of mine,
And sadly, you need to accept that that's all we'll ever be.

I felt guilty for your every depression.
They said you'll eventually get over it.
'Till then, the heavy feeling will have to stay.
Along with the thought that I lost a friend.

Sorry, if you thought that everything went to waste.
I was only waiting for the time that I learnt to love you.
I felt the need to dump you
For I've damaged you so much already.

I can still remember how this all started,
And can't believe it ended this way.
I actually missed the times you bump us in the hallway
Which were replaced by you avoiding me.

I'll miss all your sweet and emo group messages
But I'll have to get over that as well.
I'm sorry.

Written on the 5th of August 2010

The Deceived

I thought I knew you,
But something tells me I don't.
Your so-called "love" has ended too soon.
But I knew this was ahead of me
Yet the reason makes me wonder still.

We stopped talking at the same time he and I came to be
I can't help but think that these are connected
But then again, that's just me.

You told me it was my attitude that made you drift
And yet you lived through it for several months.
Isn't it funny how this suddenly came to be?
But whatever it is, it's all in the past.

Now it's like we don't know each other
It feels like sharing a room with a stranger
No one can notice the difference
And I can't do anything about it but stare


You've already deleted my number.
But I'd never do the same
Maybe I'll treat it as a decor in my contacts
And just ignore it as I pass by
You deceived yourself, not I.
But I no longer care

The Broken

Oh how time flew so fast,

The day you told me you liked me

Stuck on my mind like it was all yesterday

But now that's just a bittersweet memory

Yet I can't help but wonder what could've been.

The summer joys I had didn't seem enough

But I cannot just ask for more

I'll be silent in this corner,

Waiting to be noticed and asked what's wrong.

I see you with her, and her, and her

I'm not hurt, that's what I said

But I glanced, listened, and sensed,

That's when I knew you're not right for me

It was all a lie.

Now, I don't mind all the teases, rumors, or gossips

'Cause I know there's nothing there

We're just back to the way we were before,

Like cats and dogs, brothers and sisters.

It's true that nothing lasts forever

Yet, I can't help but think "Why so fast?"

I miss you and I hate the fact that you're never coming back.

Goodbye.